Diminishing

As always, this week has been so incredible. I can't describe in words what I am feeling. I have been from the bottom, to the top and every where in between this week.
It started off slightly discouraging. I found out my toe is broken and tomorrow I will go find out from the specialist what exactly is up with it. I cried at the doctors office about it. I am literally dancing 20+ hours a week and I have no time for a broken foot. But I kept going and said I wasn't going to let this get me down. God has brought me too far and done too much to let my heart despair now. The enemy can't have me and I will crush him by the authority given to me. Amen!:) So Im taping it pretty good and doing the best I can.

The Dance Revolution staff came in this weekend and we have had rehearsal every day. We learned parts of the production "Red" which the story of the prodigal son but with Wizard of Oz characters!!! You can't imagine how much of confirmation I received just from that. Today we got to see the entire production without all the fancy stuff added to it yet and wow! It already has so much anointing and power behind it!
The staff themselves have such a wonderful heart and their passion and excellence goes without words. I am so thankful to have the opportunity to learn from them. I want to be just like them and being around them these past few days has made me realize I have to do this the rest of my life. I have to be dancing for the Lord all my days. No job, money, house, family or material thing can sway me from this calling. It is what I was made to do. Now that I know this, I can run after it with full assurance that My God is going to provide all my needs.

The change in my heart this past week I can feel deepening. My love for the Lord has just been getting hotter. I see myself diminishing more and more every day and Him taking his true place. My anointing, passion, gifts, and talents are finally fusing together. I can't wait for all of my friends and family to see the fruit of this. They are going to be blown away:)

One of the things I have been struggling a lot with this week is a huge feeling of inadequacy.
Everyone in this program is so good technically and spiritually that I feel I am nothing. Also, I have been in such a place of leadership and out in front so long, i don't know how to function as a follower and in the back of everything. I know its good for me because it's definitely forcing me to check where my motives are in my dancing. Not going to lie its hard. I am excited to see God break this in me.

My prayer for this year is to obey Him in everything and look even more like Him after it all. ( check out this song by Lecrae:) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IiDOyQCCpKs )

Love you all and thank you so much for your prayers.:)
-Linia

First Week

So I said I would keep ya'll updated as best as I could on how life was going for me...and here is the first post.:)

Saturday I moved my life again to a new spot. I spent most of the weekend trying to put my room together the way I wanted it. My canopy and I had real trouble....but whatever;)
My beautiful guitar that all the cornerstoners signed for me is in its spot for all to see and is a constant encouragement to me.:)
Sunday morning we all went to Gateway (for me it was the first time) and it was such a solid place. The teaching was so convicting. -->check out "A tough day"-->http://gatewaypeople.com/sermons
I have a feeling I am really going to grow there. Still the weekend was pretty tough on my heart.
I have been having issues with my work schedule due to some human confusion error (and most likely puny attacks from the enemy) and it set a deep sense of fear and failure in my heart this week. Thankfully my work is going to help me out so that I can get out at a decent hour and be home by curfew.

Physically this week has been tough. We have class every day 9-1 and sometimes 2. My body has been in so much pain this week and I have had barely any time to rest due to the fact that I work tues-fri as soon as I finish with class. I hurt my back again so I have been really discouraged with my movement. >>>>So if you have time to pray for that, I would be most grateful!

Wednesday was a very interesting day for me. I had my first hip-hop class with Ryan Warren and he is a beast!!! I really hope to get better at it. It left me really frustrated with my ballet body:P Afterwards though we had an incredible time of worship together. All like minded people worshiping together was so powerful!! I know my Jesus is going to take me deep deep this year.
**(On a cool note I did wait on "The Jet" for the dallas mavericks on Wednesday!!)

I think a HUGE prayer request would be that I choose to listen to truth instead of letting myself go to my emotions for comfort. I have been dealing with intense feelings of loneliness and just feeling like Im not really striving for the best that I could become. I want to wake up the fact that i even EXIST that there is a purpose for ME. As I was praying tonight driving home I was pondering this with the Lord. There are so many people out there that He did create for on purpose so why aren't they? I feel like He said that He has made all of us with intentionality and purpose but we don't all CHOOSE Him. We choose ourselves instead. This breaks my heart. So few have stood firm. So few of my friends still know the truth. So few I once knew who had burning hearts ablaze for Him. They have grown cold, blind, and deaf. I weep for these. And ANGER burns deep in me against a defeated enemy they have let rule their lives. What would it take to wake them up??????? My heart grieves at the thought of not one day being with them in eternity. Never getting to be fully alive with them. I must do something. I HAVE to do something.

Jesus is going to do amazing things this year. I am going to be challenged beyond what I can see.
This year I will finally go from good to great.

I want to end this blog with a quote form Martin Luther:

"Faith is a living, daring confidence in God's grace, so sure and certain that a man could stake his life on it a thousand times."

Goodnight.