Saturday I moved my life again to a new spot. I spent most of the weekend trying to put my room together the way I wanted it. My canopy and I had real trouble....but whatever;)
My beautiful guitar that all the cornerstoners signed for me is in its spot for all to see and is a constant encouragement to me.:)
Sunday morning we all went to Gateway (for me it was the first time) and it was such a solid place. The teaching was so convicting. -->check out "A tough day"-->http://gatewaypeople.com/sermons
I have a feeling I am really going to grow there. Still the weekend was pretty tough on my heart.
I have been having issues with my work schedule due to some human confusion error (and most likely puny attacks from the enemy) and it set a deep sense of fear and failure in my heart this week. Thankfully my work is going to help me out so that I can get out at a decent hour and be home by curfew.
Physically this week has been tough. We have class every day 9-1 and sometimes 2. My body has been in so much pain this week and I have had barely any time to rest due to the fact that I work tues-fri as soon as I finish with class. I hurt my back again so I have been really discouraged with my movement. >>>>So if you have time to pray for that, I would be most grateful!
Wednesday was a very interesting day for me. I had my first hip-hop class with Ryan Warren and he is a beast!!! I really hope to get better at it. It left me really frustrated with my ballet body:P Afterwards though we had an incredible time of worship together. All like minded people worshiping together was so powerful!! I know my Jesus is going to take me deep deep this year.
**(On a cool note I did wait on "The Jet" for the dallas mavericks on Wednesday!!)
I think a HUGE prayer request would be that I choose to listen to truth instead of letting myself go to my emotions for comfort. I have been dealing with intense feelings of loneliness and just feeling like Im not really striving for the best that I could become. I want to wake up the fact that i even EXIST that there is a purpose for ME. As I was praying tonight driving home I was pondering this with the Lord. There are so many people out there that He did create for on purpose so why aren't they? I feel like He said that He has made all of us with intentionality and purpose but we don't all CHOOSE Him. We choose ourselves instead. This breaks my heart. So few have stood firm. So few of my friends still know the truth. So few I once knew who had burning hearts ablaze for Him. They have grown cold, blind, and deaf. I weep for these. And ANGER burns deep in me against a defeated enemy they have let rule their lives. What would it take to wake them up??????? My heart grieves at the thought of not one day being with them in eternity. Never getting to be fully alive with them. I must do something. I HAVE to do something.
Jesus is going to do amazing things this year. I am going to be challenged beyond what I can see.
This year I will finally go from good to great.
I want to end this blog with a quote form Martin Luther:
"Faith is a living, daring confidence in God's grace, so sure and certain that a man could stake his life on it a thousand times."Goodnight.
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