On gravity

      

 I was thinking tonight on the song "Gravity" by Sara Bareilles, and it kinda cuts me deep. I started thinking about all the things whether people, places, situations or choices that I am freely bound to. "Kept without touch or chains". Im not bound physically by chains, Im not bound emotionally by touch. Im just bound. Choosing to stay put and in place and never to escape. How many other things could I be doing if I was bound to these things? This twisted addiction leaves me breathless, pale, sedated. Treading lonely. All these stupid things latching on to me like leaches expecting me to give them life as they take it from me. I need to be me...not sucked into someone else's gravity or lifestyle. Not dependent on someone else's personality to be strong. What would it take to truly break away from society "gravity" and be honest with who I really am. Every part of me. 

        I think its time to "try defying gravity". ;) "Though accepting limits because someone says they are so. Some things I cannot change, but till I try I'll never know." 

Its probably the greatest risk we will every take: to allow Christ to be fully Himself by us being fully ourselves. 

        How scary is this? We are such a flawed people. I know I am. I can't do anything right. I can't spell or punctuate well. I can't dance right, point my toes or turn out. I can't keep my food down without wanting to throw it up. I can't think pure thoughts. I am selfish. I care only about me. I don't see my family enough. I don't serve enough. I seek my own glory. When will it stop? When will it end? When will I see the hopelessness defer? It makes my heart sick. This bride says come Jesus. My heart and soul longs to be complete. The longing rages in me to be whole that only You can fill. Come Jesus. I need to be in Your gravity...